reckoning

[theladyrose]

For once I won't make some pessimistic, pointless remark about the arbitrariness of measuring time, so happy new year everyone.

I might even come up with resolutions that currently are along the lines of:

-Do more community service.
-Stop avoiding people and actually respond promptly.
-Don't accept defeat so easily and maybe even stand up for myself occasionally.
-Find a job that pays more than $1.50/hr, at least for this summer/next year. (Already for copy-editing, all newspaper staffers received a 50 cent raise this semester, seriously.)
-Find a study group.
-Write more often.
-Go back to soundtrack reviewing.
-Stay active and avoid eating random!crap. (Then again, I only gain weight when I'm home. Hmm.)
-Meditate more when stressed.

If I learned anything from last year, it's that a) the more you strive for harmony and order in life, the more the universe (fate, God, whatever else you might call it) and b) all plans go out the window when it comes to organizing large groups of people. The number of calls I received this past week alone for New Year's Eve board game night exceeded all of the calls I've had from old friends this past semester in college. I did end up coming out to my parents about being asexual on Christmas Day; my father looked politely puzzled but sympathetic, and my mother acted as if there was nothing strange about the situation but did suggest that sexuality was a trend, which I'll admit did sting a little although I can understand her skepticism. (Then again, I don't think she's read Plato's the Symposium and Socrates' speech about his views on the most ideal form of love, which is spiritual/asexual in nature. And now I'll restrain myself from making further pretentious references.) I think they got lost in my attempts to explain the difference between aesthetic and sexual attraction. The sex as bungee jumping metaphor (not like THAT, perverts) wasn't nearly as easy for them to grasp as I thought it'd be. My sexual views in a nutshell: sex is like bungee jumping; I don't care if other people are doing it so long as they're not harming anyone else or themselves, but it's not something that really appeals to me.

I've been writing more random thoughts down in the paper journal shakeitdown gave to me after graduation to avoid emotional hemorrhaging here. I must confess I've never really liked January or February, but I'm hoping that with the start of the new semester I'll avoid slipping into bad habits.

But on a more light-hearted note: apparently large concentrations of mint can still make me hyper (why this happens, I still have no idea), as my family discovered after I drank five (small) glasses of Moroccan mint tea. Actually, me being hyper now seems to result in some attempts at exclaiming random things in a really bad Dr. Strangelove accent and a lot of sliding on wood floors in my socks while attempting not to crash into the walls. I'll probably become more loony within the next few weeks as I undergo the joyous process of trying to find an apartment with reasonable rent for four people in South Central Los Angeles. ENVY ME. Or not.

Going back to college will be interesting; unfortunately because of the timing with my parents' trip to China I won't be able to go visit friends on the East Coast during spring break after all this year. I'm starting to understand why the student crowd can be considered spiritually homeless, but I don't think I'm experienced enough in these matters to have a mature, legitimate viewpoint on such matters.

(I will get around to replying to comments, but I have been horribly lazy and neglecting the Internet lately. I can't apologize enough.)

Comments

[dragonfly66.livejournal.com]

what do you mean bungee jumping doesn't appeal to you?

EVERYBODY LOVES A GOOD BUNJEE. Jump, that is.

[malbal55.livejournal.com]

(accidentally posted this comment with numerous stupid typos the first time.)

seconded on the appealing nature of bunjee jumping? i would have used "eating white chocolate" or "keeping pet tarantulas" for the metaphor...

also, official apology for not attending the new years eve party. basically, my parents told me i couldn't go at a time when phones were not accessible. im sorry!!

[blofeldscat.livejournal.com]

"I will get around to replying to comments, but I have been horribly lazy and neglecting the Internet lately. I can't apologize enough."

Yeah, that would be cool, sweetie. :p

[ladylavinia.livejournal.com]

I'll probably become more loony within the next few weeks as I undergo the joyous process of trying to find an apartment with reasonable rent for four people in South Central Los Angeles. ENVY ME. Or not.


South Central Los Angeles? (Sighs) I suppose. If you must. Hmmm.