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theladyrose) wrote2008-04-14 03:19 am
theladyrose) wrote2008-04-14 03:19 am
age of decadence
It was a decadent sort of weekend, luxurious in its relative idleness. Blessed be the professor who gave us all an extension on that paper! Still, I can't really afford to be this lazy when there's less than a month of the semester left.
I guess what's stressing me out most right now is research and the perpetual sense that I have unfinished business to take home. With my old position in the social psych lab, I'd go into the lab for a certain number of hours and be done. Now there's a weekly team meeting and other random meetings with my supervisors to make sure I'm getting stuff done correctly and then actually evaluating the tapes and/or revising the evaluations so that they can be critiqued at the next group meeting. Being dumb, I always find myself procrastinating because I'm terrified of realizing how much further behind I am than anyone else. I know that it's a dysfunctional way of handling things, but it's hard to break out of the cycle. No point in ruminating about it at this hour, though, when I have a midterm at 10 this morning and an admissions panel afterwards.
In a little more than a month I'll be Verona, away from all this madness before another couple of years of who knows what. All the scholarship paperwork's officially taken care of, and I've finally figured out my transportation arrangements. Though we're going on a number of day and multi-day trips throughout Italy (Firenze, Padova, Milano, Mantova and Roma) as a group, there are definitely a number of other places I'd like to see - Venice, for one. Hopefully Vienna as well as I've always wanted to go there after seeing The Third Man, though I swear I've heard that Prater Park is closed now. If all goes well I'll be meeting my mother's Swiss half-siblings, who probably compromise the entire Chinese population of Lausanne, as well. I'm not really sure what other cities/countries are feasible to visit during my two extended weekends, so if anyone has any suggestions I'd be more than appreciative. I'd love to meet up with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eyepiece_simile and zedhaus and anyone else who might be around the area.
This doesn't surprise me in the slightest :P There are times when I am seriously convinced that there was an accident with a time machine when I was born and that my heart truly belongs in 60's Britain. Generally, I tend to get along better with people of my parents' generation than my own.
I guess what's stressing me out most right now is research and the perpetual sense that I have unfinished business to take home. With my old position in the social psych lab, I'd go into the lab for a certain number of hours and be done. Now there's a weekly team meeting and other random meetings with my supervisors to make sure I'm getting stuff done correctly and then actually evaluating the tapes and/or revising the evaluations so that they can be critiqued at the next group meeting. Being dumb, I always find myself procrastinating because I'm terrified of realizing how much further behind I am than anyone else. I know that it's a dysfunctional way of handling things, but it's hard to break out of the cycle. No point in ruminating about it at this hour, though, when I have a midterm at 10 this morning and an admissions panel afterwards.
In a little more than a month I'll be Verona, away from all this madness before another couple of years of who knows what. All the scholarship paperwork's officially taken care of, and I've finally figured out my transportation arrangements. Though we're going on a number of day and multi-day trips throughout Italy (Firenze, Padova, Milano, Mantova and Roma) as a group, there are definitely a number of other places I'd like to see - Venice, for one. Hopefully Vienna as well as I've always wanted to go there after seeing The Third Man, though I swear I've heard that Prater Park is closed now. If all goes well I'll be meeting my mother's Swiss half-siblings, who probably compromise the entire Chinese population of Lausanne, as well. I'm not really sure what other cities/countries are feasible to visit during my two extended weekends, so if anyone has any suggestions I'd be more than appreciative. I'd love to meet up with
eyepiece_simile and zedhaus and anyone else who might be around the area.You Belong in the Baby Boomer Generation |
 You fit in best with people born between 1943 and 1960. You are optimistic, rebellious, and even a little self centered. You still believe that you will change the world. You detest authority and rules. Deep down, you're a non conformist. |
This doesn't surprise me in the slightest :P There are times when I am seriously convinced that there was an accident with a time machine when I was born and that my heart truly belongs in 60's Britain. Generally, I tend to get along better with people of my parents' generation than my own.
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I believe your reasoning behind your procrastination applies to me as well. I could never put it into words but that seems about right. It's as if the act of not doing the work means that there's not much of it to be done. I hope that makes sense...
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The problem with procrastination is that it technically works. You're reinforced for turning in whatever it is that you're working on, especially when how much you're rewarded is the same if you turn in a paper a week early vs. the day of. There isn't much of a point, then, in changing your habits when the end reinforcement is still the same; hence, we find ourselves still up at 4 AM again and again. See, Lavond, I do remember some of the things I learned in your class!
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If you do make it as far as Vienna, do drop me a line! It would be lovely to meet for coffee, if you have time.
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Hope you're de-stressing and relaxing for a bit tonight.