islanded in a stream of stars

wow. you just made me very happy - i've never heard anyone else say anything like that. I suppose i differ a little in that i am "seeking" a relationship(to an extent, but not really actively) and would like to be with someone, but the sex thing - i totally agree with you on that. Sometimes a long term relationship scares me, too. Like, i want to date people, but when i think about beyond the first bit, i freak out. And then i realize that there is a great likelihood that, unless i find someone who is extremely understanding, i shouldn't even worry because they will not want to be with me that long without being sexual. some of my friends call me repressed. Others think that i'm "just not ready yet." But I'm starting to wonder if there is a "yet", or if this is just....who i am. But i have never heard anyone else who has this...problem. I'm not sure that i have become quite as comfortable with it as you have, but what else am i going to? I don't know you, but i'm so glad that there is someone else out there like me; that i'm not a freak, or psychologically unbalanced. :)