why did summer go so quickly; was it someting that I said

Like the eponymous character of Marcel Ayme's short story, "Les Sabines," I would like nothing more than to be able to duplicate myself at a moment's notice and have my identical sisters, sharing one consciousness, live out all of the scenarios and play all their respective personas. No one's ever just one person-there are so many facets of a personality yet never enough time to really polish and display every side at once. Put much more simply, there are too many things I want to do, but I just don't have the energy to play out all these parts.

Sometimes I really don't quite know why I made the choices that I have (*cough* college */cough*) And that's OK, I guess. My problem is that I tend to come up with too many supporting and detracting points for each side that the arithmetic of persuasion cancels out to nothing; it is lucky or mysteriously convenient, then, that I've gotten really good at rationalizing my actions and judgements. I'm neither terribly happy or unhappy about my decision; I figure once I get to campus I'll find some quirky subculture or three in which to entrench myself.

I only get this pretentiously cryptic when I'm really sleep deprived, as I am right now.

I've come to the conclusion that I don't really have enough hot weather clothes as I donated a lot of my old T-shirts and such a few weeks ago as they're too small now. How hot is it usually in LA in the fall?